I'm smiling at a space  
    where your lips used to lie  
    as I filled your mouth  
    with my tongue  
    the closest thing to love I could find.
     
    In your chest is a heart  
    where a vacancy used to be  
    and plunged into it  
    is a sign reading:  
    souled  
    I'm not really sure what it means  
    but I don't think you do either  
    and maybe that's the point  
    
  We feel things we cannot describe  
  we say things we could never mean  
  we mean things we could never say
    
    I'm clinging to the side of the bed  
    where your warm body used to lie  
    It's cold now, and your scent has long since fled  
    but I bury my face in the pillow  
    hoping that my mind can do the seeing  
    because my eyes never could.  
    Memories pound behind my eyelids  
    Threatening no tears,   
    but merely gentle migraines.  
    
  My heart pounds louder   
  faster  
  Making it hard to breathe  
  Fear has penetrated my frail fingertips  
  as I feel your skin beneath them  
  your fingers interlaced with mine  
  my lips drown under yours  
  and I shiver as sudden warmth  
  fills my body as blood rushes through me  
  I gasp  
  suddenly able to breathe  
  and my eyes flutter open  
  but no one is there.  
  No fingers interlaces with mine  
  No lips pressed against my own  
  Just your empty  
  cold  
  side of the bed.  
    
    I'm smiling at a space  
    where your lips used to lie  
    whispering sweet hellos  
    when all you meant was goodbye.